today. six.

six, 11.16.08

tonight, i remember a moment from this scene in good will hunting* where robin williams says to matt damon, "do you have a soul mate?...somebody who challenges you?...someone who opens up things for you. touches your soul."

i remember being in the theatre in college when i saw this movie and reflecting for a moment on the idea of a soul mate being someone who challenges you. i remember thinking how different this sounded than what other people had told me i was supposed to want. and i remember hoping...
one day...

on this day, i feel very blessed to have been married to someone who challenges me...who opens things...who pushes me and touches my soul...to have been married to him for six years.

very blessed.

*note that this scene, like this whole movie, has a whole heck of a lot of swear words you might not want your children to hear...but it is such a very good scene.

yet another blog post in november

facebook statuses that could have been written by me today:

liz...

is wishing that there were fresh eggs so she could have two poached eggs and toast for breakfast...or is it lunch by now?

was totally able to get to etsy in time to buy the doll she wanted.

is emailing with maddie and wishing she was sitting here right now.

is still in her pajamas at 11 a.m.

is watching notre dame win.

is watching navy almost beat notre dame by scoring a whole lot of points in the last two minutes.

is kind of thinking navy deserved to win after that.

is sewing together a lot of scarves.

hopes january 20 gets here soon.

misses her friends so much it hurts.

is in love with purple today.

wishes she was sitting in jen's office and emailing her (even if we might be in the same room at the time).

is watching a whole lot of season two of the west wing (and is more than a little crushing on sam seaborn).

is really thankful jonny brought her lunch.

is beyond panicked about getting things ready for urban craft uprising.

is wondering what to do when people she doesn't know ask to be her friend on facebook.

is wishing she didn't have to be the one to torment millie with the eye medicine.

is loving the outfit she just put on.

cannot even believe that six years ago we were at our rehearsal dinner.

feels really loved when people say, "how are you?" and mean it.

has declared she will not be cooking the turkey on thanksgiving (so you know what that means...)

is wearing her new (sexy) black over-the-knee socks.

is kind of wishing she lived in an apartment...or maybe just had a little space somewhere just for her to go to during the day...or on those days when she needs to just be.

is eating homemade lasagna made by someone else (and loving it).

is enjoying laughter and good conversation.

is back to the part where she misses her friends.

is hoping to cut out lots of apron pockets tomorrow.

is smiling at an email she received.

wishes she had time to finish the ripple afghan (but MUST instead make aprons and scarves and bags and how the list goes on instead).

has to write a blog post before midnight.

is kind of ready to get to the part that involves pajamas and a pillow and cuddles.

has decided that it is simply time for bed.

tonight's list.

the guest room becoming the little room closet

sabrina
amelie
roman holiday
you've got mail
emma
sliding doors
pillow talk
that touch of mink
notting hill
sleepless in seattle

so, this is a list of movies that have main characters with clothes i most want to borrow.
yep.

any others? there have to be others...

watching sabrina tonight...
brainstorming a blog post...
came up with this...
today was kind of stressful...
don't have the emotional energy for another kind of post...

every day in november people.

sweet dreams...

tonight.

(bits of) november 12. [and two girls, two clicks. week 8]

photo collaboration with miss geek inc, week 8

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2 girls, 2 clicks

today...

i was filled with wonder when watching this preview for pixar's up

i discovered i don't love the color pink when it means my puppy has pink eye

i smiled widely while checking out the weepies new video (via andrea)

i laughed out loud while talking with my mom on the phone

i learned a dear friend is moving close to my corner of the world (makes me so very happy)

i cried when i watched keith olbermann's commentary on prop 8 (minutes apart meri and ellen brought it to my attention)

i felt warm with each mug of numi's monkey king jasmine tea

i missed my beautiful girls so very much that i let myself pout a bit

i linked to blog friends in the above sentence in that way i find a bit pretentious

i allowed myself to own that i am loved

i deeply enjoyed reading each comment from my last post

i listened to daytime volume sing "something to chase"

i found myself a bit annoyed when my period key on my laptop kept sticking

i remembered how much i love it when jonny and i can just be side by side on the couch while each using our laptops

i decided that i think i am going to order this as i really do love a good cup of coffee in the morning (as i just cannot seem to make one in the drip coffee maker we have and i don't live close enough to jen to just walk over and drink one at her house)

i reminded myself that being here is the home of my heart

*****

this friday, i plan to make a new batch of soul mantra pendants, and i wanted to let you know just in case you have been thinking about a custom necklace.

if you have your own soul mantra word/phrase in mind, please email me at waywardtulip at gmail dot com so that we can discuss it.

also, a few folks have mentioned that they like the layered look of the pendants (including with other jewelry they have), so if you ever want the chain length to be shorter or longer, remember, all you have to do is ask. thanks!

a peek.

shedding maple, seattle, 11.8.08

i am so very sleepy after so much goodness in my world during the last four days.
and even though i (keep trying to insist that i ) am not officially doing this (except for the part where i just went and said i will), i just can't seem to go to bed without stopping by this little corner of my world and saying hello.

but today, i would really love it if you would do the talking...

so, what's going on in your world?

tell me something...anything...maybe a new favorite book or something you want to let go or something that has made you laugh out loud or what you had for dinner...

please,
give me a peek inside your world...

looking back to see here.

westport, washington, april 2008

i remember that little twitch inside that wasn't really a twitch but was more like a jolt that became an rsvp to an invitation to be completely misunderstood. i remember that whisper in the middle of my chest that was really more like a pit in my stomach that was feeling more than alone in the midst of what was to be an encirclement. i remember not listening to the voice inside that was really my intuition that was really the wisdom that has always been there. i remember the empty space that was really a moment alone that was actually a breath of fresh air disguised as intense confusion. i remember the desire to be thought of as someone else which was really a wish to be loved for who i was in that moment. i remember the confusion that was really the truth of someone else unable to just show up. i remember the words that are now only echoes that once insisted to be significant and now are the path that brought me to this moment. i remember feeling the darkness while looking at what was supposed to be trust and wondering why i allowed it all to happen. i remember the hope that turned into an ugliness that became my path and birthed all that was meant to be.

i am here.
i am here.
i am here.
and it is beauty.
all of it.
it is beauty.
(thank you)

live it baby girl

in jen's kitchen, 11.9.08

sometimes you have that moment...
someone holds up a mirror
and you see you
with an open heart
you see yourself
with your heart wide open
and you own it
you
you own it
who you are
who you want to be
the path behind you
and the possibility
that simply sits before you
(it. is. there.)

this
this is a gift

see it

and live