november 8

 

standing in fall . november, 2009

wanderings that led me to goodness this week:

t.ruffles. go visit this new blog collaboration. right now. oh my goodness.

stephanie's online journaling class really sounds quite lovely.

deeply inspired by kristen's (forever known as acumamakiki in our house) posts lately. especially this one. and this one.

the art of marisol spoon makes me smile (visit her etsy shop).

susannah's my creative life interview with gwen bell has my mind turning (in a very good way).

this post by stephanie at nie nie dialogues invited me to breathe deeply. (thank you for this post)

really wish you were here.

we would have tea + cake and talk and remember and dream...

november 7

scenes from an autumn evening drive.

tonight is

an almost-finished super soft crocheted scarf

a big glass of milk

millie snoozing against my legs

the sounds of jon grading

a delicious book on the pod

downloading a much-beloved album i have wanted to listen to for weeks

figuring out a few christmas presents

reflecting on the beautiful blue-skied sunday that made for a gorgeous sunset last weekend

rain rain rain

a tinge of missing

flannel pajamas

ginger cookies

(and i think it is time to admit i am attempting NaBloPoMo for the second year in a row...even if all the posts aren't "exciting" or "inspiring," i am going to just share where i am each day...thanks for stopping by.)

november 6

hello there you
with your incredible pants
and cheeks
and wispy hair
look at you standing tall
although perhaps unsure
between, i am guessing, a buick and a chevy
something tells me this might have been a moment of good-bye
one last photo snapped before they backed out of the driveway
to head over the hills and mountains toward home
saying good-bye was really never your thing
still isn't
waiting to cry until later
when everyone else has left
yes, this is what you do
how i wish i had those pants
i would turn them into patches of a quilt
yes
to be made for someone destined to be your size one day
those searching eyes
one foot then the other
this is what we know 

november 5

tonight
my heart whispers
the prayer
whispered around the world 

om
shanti
shanti
shanti

peace
peace
peace

november 4

new hampshire clothesline . september 2009

remember baby girl
you don't need to do it alone
just reach out
even if it seems as though there is only darkness
someone will be there
yes
someone will be there
open up just a bit
loosen your grip
breathe
reach
know

(you are deeply loved)

november 3

autumn sky above puget sound . november 2009

i want to show up and say something here. but the words are jumbled in my brain and the need to "say something inspiring" is bugging me with its insistent little ways. maybe i will just share some random thoughts that are skipping across my brain this evening. i am so grateful for friends who listen while i babble and then share just that piece of insight that has me nodding knowing i am heard and understood. chocolate pudding is making me very happy. i had butterscotch pudding while in the emergency room friday night (i am okay. long story involving choking on a cracker. sigh. always something.) and ever since i have been having seconds of cravings for pudding. might have to have another bit of pudding in a few moments. millie sleeps so much and i am a little jealous of how she can just curl up and start snoring. jon is kind of the same way. napping i have down, but getting to sleep at night is not so easy lately. brain will not stop flitting here and there and across the way. reading the notes on facebook and blogs and emails from the women who experienced the unearth retreat are like the flashlight i need to know i am on the right path. i am so grateful for them. i keep wishing i could call my grandmother in the middle of the day. i want her advice right now. a little part of me wishes we were going to walt disney world soon. i just kind of want to sit in epcot and listen to the music and just be. though i admit that there is something odd about a woman who wants to go to wdw to "just be." maybe i should change that image to maui. yes. maui would be perfection. i could watch for whales and someone could bring me drinks with fruit and i could just be. want to join me? universe, i put out there that i would love to find a way to write the rest of my book while on a beach somewhere. watching for whales and eating fruit, lots of fruit. yes. perfection.

thanks for listening.

do you have anything you might want to share in this moment? i would love to hear from you...

november 2

a galaxy in a pot of tea . mandolin cafe, november 1, 2009

i am writing

writing

writing

yes, this is where i am right now

the weepies sing

"get up now baby, get up now baby, it's your song playing"

jon calls on his way to pick up some dinner

our little family will soon be gathered again

another evening

dusk shows up so quickly now

the candles are lit

how this helps, the nightly lighting of the candles

it tells the darkness to come on

we welcome this invitation to breathe

i write

and gather

the pieces of what i know

and sigh with that oh my goodness sort of sigh

as i think about these pieces

side by side on pages in a book

i write

and rest when i need to

rest is part of my path right now

permission to rest

i hear sark say these words

thank you for that permission

you should know that you

yes you

have permission to rest too...

november 1

miss millie . an outtake from today's series of photos taken for the book

eyes open
lean in
(to unsureness)
ride along
breathe
breathe
breathe
honor all my body needs
listen to its whispered truth
hope
let go
push in
(toward all of it)
breathe
seek, see the hand in the darkness
grateful
clasp
find, feel my way